so long peepoles!

i think i'll close this blog down. no reasons, just feel like it. but i'll leave it just here for memories. ta ta! (and open a new one!) :D

oyasumi!

i am a superwoman. (at least i think i am.)

26/5/10 did not sleep for the whole day
27/5/10 on am shift, went to sch after work

i nearly got knocked down by a red nissan. gosh. tireddd.
oh wells, i've got no life anyway. cheers!

random note: been comment by ppl i have the fierce look and the im-attached-i-have-a-boyf look. ((((( (((( ((( (( ( W . T . F ) )) ))) )))) )))))

the girl who leapt through time.

so hooked on this song. loved how these animes teach people life lessons; "time waits for no one."

insomnia.

lonely, i am so lonely. i have nobody, of my own~~~

feel so so so down recently.

some troubles having been surfacing. money wise, schooling wise. argh. ahahaaaa i'll just laugh it off i guess. one step at a time.

saw some ppl's fb pics. great cars, overseas schooling, traveling, branded stuffs. cant help(serious cant help) envy them. but then again, i always tell myself; be contented with whatever you have.

hmm got a craving for starbucks now. on a side note, dont ever buy starbucks on the last fri of the mth. attractive half price yes, but argh. SO DAMN DILUTED! i think to cope with the long Q, they make large quantities. ahahaaa

hmm btw today something weird happened. this indian guy(in his 40s?) knocked on my door, showed me his IC and told me to give him some money for food(like $20) cuz he came to borrow money from his fren but they were not at home, and he's not working. i looked at him, he looked like a family man to be, neat, wearing a watch(cant make out the brand) then i told him: " if ure hungry i made some pasta, you could have some. but im not giving you any money. you are able-bodied, why shd you ask for money when you can work?" he looked at me and mumbled: "nevermind, its okay" and walked off.
i was thinking, OBIVIOUSLY the money you asked for wasnt for food. if ure THAT hungry, whatever food offered to you, you would surely accept. i laughed to myself and thought how cruel i am to reject hungry souls at my doorstep. no, i am not. he's a swindler anyway ahahaaaa. but then again, if he's a swindler, why would he show me his IC? WEIRD LA.

yawns, i'll go to sleep now. nites world. ahaha :D

random much.

random notes:

-been thinking of getting a 2nd tatt. :D THINKING.

-really cant stand ppl's fb statuses going like 'dont want to have dinner alone' or 'going clubbing alone' or 'im so lonely cheer me up'. ZOMG get a life.as if your life is gonna get better posting statuses like that. goodness!

-i think i am asexual. i cant seem to like/love anyone. im neither straight nor crooked. what am i??!!

-i wanna go clubbing soon.

-im kinda picking my nose now.

sudden end. goodnights world.

EVERYTIME.

i remembered the 1st time i saw this mv, was at the amk mrt station, taking the train home after school. i liked Mark then, and i didnt know why.
but now i know. its his laughing eyes and his height!(oh man i love tall ppl)

ANTI YOU, JACKASS.

a HO pissed me off. i dont discrimate this whole batch of drs, but this asshole has really flared me up.

i have been observing this little fucker here bootlicking and sucking his pathetic tongue up to his colleagues and superiors. fine. nothing to do with me. but what he really makes me angry(hell angry) is that he's not patient orientated. i dont see his passion. AT ALL.

and what made me said all of the above is for a reason, cuz i have encountered his sickening acts for MYSELF and it irks me. i hope his superiors can see what type of treatment he is delivering and grade him for it(if i were to grade, it'll be a U--> ungraded.)

haha. attitude and conduct like that, i wonder: will he be ever make it to the top. aiya, maybe yes, but as the saying goes, what comes around goes around.

DBSK

oh changmin so handsome <3

:)

hmm bored tuesday. jio-ed ppl out, either they are working, or out with their boyfriends. random enough, i dropped a visit to my aunt at yck area. :)
i really admire her so much. i didnt tell her before; but she was the one who inspired me to become a nurse, like she was. she had been single all her life, dependent on only herself. sometimes i think wouldnt she feel lonely living on her own? but heck care all that. shes really one woman i respect so much.

anyways, i loved the peace route towards her house. passed by buzzing hawker centres, religious temples, and my fave part, the long pavement with grassy slopes. it gave me kinda a country feel you know. away from the busy city. maybe my next visit i'll bring my dilly along too; there are quite a few nice scenes to snap :))

this is what i was listening the whole journey towards her house:

poor thing!

jellybean is sick. running green snot and running a fever. and bloody menses is running too. great; she will go for a run tml morning. *giddy ++

my life would suck without GLEE. :(

season 2 come quickkkkkkk plssssssss :)

new tattoo love :)

marry for love. purely LOVE.

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23. The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US . Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.

An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.The other couple in the picture are Nick’s parents. Excited to see their son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube , listening to a song from her husband and friends.

At the reception, Katie had to take a few rests. The pain did not allow her to stand for long periods.

Katie died five days after her wedding day.

seriously, i kinda teared abit reading this. this is true love; not ur superficial love you see nowadays(like you only like that person cuz he/she is handsome/pretty.) Nick married Katie despite the short time she had in this world. she was going to DIE. how many ppl would still marry the person they love even when they know that their other half is dying? not to mention they think their loved one is still the most beautiful person in the entire world, when he/she looks like only a bag of grey skin and bones. the answer is: not many ppl.

well, i think this is true love. really. love transcends all. :)

Nick and Katie; you guys are so lucky to have found each other.

old school song; like 1981?!

I LOVE THIS SONG (:

mindless yet inspiring ramblings(?)

on my way home, i saw an old couple, both with silver white heads holding hands and taking their evening walk. i start to wonder; there are so many people(like billions and billions)how does one find the other one? be it straights or gays.

somehow, i feel that to be able to find that one you wanna hold hands with is a miracle. ahahaaaa crap. i wanna hold hands. any hand also can i think. cute little girl, charming young man, old friendly grandma; all are welcome.

hmm reading The Alchemist always never failed to inspire me into the ideas of the Soul of the World, no matter how many times i read it. Even after a hard day's work, reading the book motivates me and i'll start thinking; hey although its hard, this is my dream man. and although its long hours staying/working in the same place, its okay as it allows me to be in contact with different persons, broadening my mind out to the world.

and also, to me, thanks from a greatful patient doesnt have to mean giving you verbal compliments or positive written feedbacks. Language of the World; the bright twinkling of their eyes and a smile is way enough. yeah, his book really had a life-enhancing impact on my life. so glad i stumbled upon it at the library :))

okay maybe you think im talking crap here. but if you do read the book and understand it, you know what i mean. but unfortunately, ppl around me dont read it. ahahahahaa only Heather does(shes my soulmate!)

alrights gotta end here. goodnights world :) yawns~

he's in a different league.

listening to n'sync - that girl will never be mine
ahahaaaa so bubblepop boyband-ish. i know.

i still rmb how crazy i was in love with Lance Bass; and still am now! :D so shuai la!!(but gay! haiz)

はじまりはいつも雨 ♥♥♥

2 of my fave jap singers. COMBINED! :D bossa novaaaaa.

Crazierrr.

life.is.so.arghhhhh. boring.

will upload the trip to the zoo soon on facebook haha.

wa lao i look so damn tanned(like an indian!) lor. alot(i mean really ALOT) of patients or relatives have been asking me: are you malay? i have had 2 ppl asked me this today. 2 yesterday too. wa laosssss. whens my tan gonna fade away.. hais i know no matter how much whitening creams i put, it just wont go away. sometimes i really wished i have the the skin of those fair girls, who look delicate and pretty being fair-skinned. right now i look like a big brown strong buffalo. SHITZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

life's kinda mundane recently. except for the smu fest coming on the late jan/early feb, its like so boring.

work is like blahhhhh too. and yeah. there's this particular dr i wanna comment abt(not gonna mention his name here; and yes its a HE) he gives me the impression of wking for the SAKE of wking. i cannot feel the passion of being a dr in him u know. he talks to nurses badly, patients.. like blah.. heckcare. hmm then i was looking at him, thinking: why the fark you become a dr. FOR WHAT. annoying u know, that someone can have the brains to become one, but NO INTEREST in it. wa lao, i would kill to have his brains man. but then again, being a nurse is more my cup of teh so yeah, a missy i shall be heehee. ok enough of mindless ramble here. gotta sleep. morning shift tml. goodnites world :)

2010!

minutes to midnight.
2010.
happy new year to all. :DD

may this year be fruitful for me, i hope.

again, happy new year to you :)