i wanna have a good day out, enjoying myself to the max, and not worrying abt anything at all.
im so stressed. =(

read abt the dragonboat accident. 5 guys died. i tot it was so sad, with them being so young and a bright future ahead. felt so sorry for their families.
life can be so unpredictable...

ppl like ah ken must be extinct already.

jingle all the way

you and me, under the mistletoe!! (^^,)

i can feel depression coming. i need help. prcp is stressing me out too much. im trying my utmost best, yet not appreciated. death is such an easy way out..

Il Mare. i think the writer of this movie is so talented, being able to create such a touching and unique story. go watch it at crunchyroll.com or something, coz its really good. `fate do bring ppl together, its just that we're unaware of it.

went to jog juz now.. i cant seem to lose weight omg. argh. so annoying. really tempted to take laxatives or slimming pills or wadever.

btw i hate racists. wth is wrong with them man. thinking they're more SUPERIOR or something? seriously, im so ashamed and embarrassed to know such ppl. wells, u might as well dont eat nasi lemak, nasi briyani lor. just stick to ur bloody cheena cai peng and chicken rice. (>.>)

怎么可能.

good things rarely happen to me, but bad things always will.
thats why when good things happen, i dont believe my luck.
i keep telling myself to think positively,
but im so tired of repeating myself.

KAT-TUN newest pv Keep The Faith for the jdorama, Yukan Club.(jin's so gd looking omg. btw YC is really good. i give it a 8.2/10. abit of hana yori dango feel. go watch! ^^)

bloody hell go eat shit

I REALLY HATE PPL WHO TRIES TO BE ANOTHER PERSON IN FRONT OF OTHERS. namely, my bro.what the fuck is wrong with him trying to act so cool, caring, sociable and a know-it-all in front of ppl i know.

i was really having a tiring day yest. woke up @ 4.30am. and at night i was going to meet my cousins at a chilling place. I WAS SO HAPPY OK, at the thought of hanging out with them. den i realised i did not bring my ic. my cuz told my bro to get it for me, & oso at the same time, he can join us too. i was thinking, "wth. i DONT want him along. he cant drink AT ALL. i was having trouble with him at the banquet when he was DRUNK. I HATE DRUNK PPL fyi." but juz being nice i said yea he can come too.
but in the end sui's frenz filming ended up pretty late @ abt 10.30. and before that my bro was sms-ing me 3 times that seriously i was not allowed to carry BIG bags, leave them with my frenz. den sui's fren say it was OK to bring as long as i dun carry things that can hurt ppl. after the filiming i was like wanting to RUSH down to meet them at the bar when my bro called me & said, "... well u can dont come la. its very late. next time lo." HELLO! those places close down super LATE at nite can! and he oso said he came along to like look after me and that he wouldnt come at all cos he's having exams but he still came. wahhh so protective ah. FUCK LA. its more likely I LOOK AFTER HIM and pls cut the crap out. where in the world ppl would go clubbing knowing he has an exam round the corner. BULLSHIT. i think, he juz wanna go there himself ALONE with the 2 girls. horny bastard. had the cheek to say i think too much. OH PLEASE.

well, he can tell the girls all the bad things abt me being petty, stupid, dumb whatever. if he really does that, i would give him the award of the year as being the most opportunistic person. i guess what some of my frenz said was right. he is too overly conceited & so full of himself. ARGH im so sick & tired of that fucking fat ass attitude. god pls help me.

lim qian lingの脳内

hmm, kinda true. i always think of food and money.

dread attachment. sian.

百分百感觉Feel 100% i missed this show.. all the characters r so gd looking! esp fang li shen! hehe

1 more day to relax. i really live the wkdays for the wkends.

monday going ED. hope everything goes well for me. and oh, oso filming for sui's proj. LOL i'll be acting as a pregnant mom in the 60s with a husband having an affair outside. seriously. i hope that i wont screw up their vid with my poor acting skills. HAHAHA xD

prcp is freaking me out. argh. dun wanna think abt it but.. haiz it worries me alot.. =(

btw jay's new song 'Cai Hong/彩虹' (rainbow) is damn nice.. i really like the skies in the mtv. dawn slowly breaks into the night sky.. beautiful.

hmm wonder what i'll do on sunday. slack again? argh. maybe go out? but go where? ... so sian.

W-inds - Beautiful Life -i thought their new pv(releasing @ nov 7) was kinda crappy.. compared to their previous pvs like Trial or Yakusoku no Kakera. Keita's hair was abit fugly to me =( ryohei growing moustache was weird for his childish face, and ryochi... =(( what happened to the W-inds of the past sia. so disappointing. but alas, im still going to dl it being a uber W-inds fan haha.

go GRACE blog to see my bdae pics(cuz im abit lazy to put up hahaaa)

lousy day today. kana scolded on the 1st day at OT. den hav to partner a person who is so SO q..u..i..e..t.

ARGH. nvm. i'll go jog later with fat-neck nigger. so long nv jog already. omg. feeling so fat already, and yest i ate 1 whole packet of fries at mac near 12mn. OMG. wa lao yc all ur fault laaa y dun want to share with me.. now i feel so guilty le.

im looking forward to playing bball this sat morning. hao jiu hao jiu nv TOUCH bball le. oso hao jiu hao jiu nv dribble le LOL sure alot of air ball one xD

random.

received feedbacks that im becoming more anti-social. yea, i felt it too. in fact, esp after hanging out with sui&wq clique of friends. i think im too conservative for my own sake. and plus my low self-esteem, im so stuck at nowhere.
wells, everyone is made differently. just be who u are and take it easy. dont read so deep in between the lines and get urself bummed up. yea.

i just love sunny days.

look up; for a just a second of ur busy life.

your smile makes my day.(even weeks)
song of the day: JENNY

disturbing dreams pls go away. u too! ugly green-blue bruises.

i feel so unloved in my family. no one celebrated my bdae, except my mum gave me hongbao. not even wishes from bro & dad(i think they forgot, and kept quiet abt it till NOW. so SADDENING rite, i noe, but thats just how my family is. but as long as every1 is happy and healthy, im fine with anything.) im not being angry or anything, its just that a simple 'happy bdae' from them would be nice. i guess i've done something bad in my pastlife to deserve this. but anyway, i feel lucky too coz i've a bunch of good friends around me; im SO thankful to God. as always, u win some, u lose some.

-thats all folks!\(^^,)/-

hopeless. yet hopeful. (wth)
koibito.. hoshii.

maybe tml's sentosa trip with sui will make me not think so much.
pls dont rain tml. i need the SUN; piping hot SUN on my mouldy face, and my brain-dead mind.

pray, and wish, that something good would happen to me tml. who knows, i might pick up a koibito at the beach tml, or even better. a koibito picked me up LOL =D

and oh yes. i finally shitted. after so many freaking days. ahhhhhhhhh~

i cant stop listening to this. totally love the retro beat =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

HAPPY 19th Bdae to ME!! YEAHHHHH.

i thought i'll be meeting sui & wq only for my bdae celebration(thou 2 ppl only i feel contented le), scarly yc, tracy and grace(special guest appearance??) TURNED UP!! OMG so damn HAPPY la!. thought they like not confirmed in coming sia.
it seemed the rest waited at fish&co at 7pm onwards. i was supposedly meeting sui at dg station at 7.30 but i came at 7.50. haha. i noe.. late queen.

we ate seafood platter, fish&chips. grace said fish&co had this rule that bdae gals r to stand up on the chair(staffs will sing bdae song then), or either go up stage to sing. SING LEH! omg. and of course, i chose the stand up option.
yea, when they all sung, i danced abit(fyi, im on the CHAIR) so damn PAI SEH man. ARGH.

after that they gave me FLOWERS(in colors of RED, BLUE, YELLOW, PEACH, PINK) and a necklace in the shape of robot(SO CUTE) hey guys, i really loved the presents, and credits to suisui for being so bloody OBSERVANT in what i like.

this may sound mushy, but i just have to say it. I LOVE U GUYS ALOT! i really treasure our friendship and hope it lasts till we go to hell. btw, "welcome to hell"-fish&co.

our food.

red-yc, blue-tracy, pink-wq, peach-grace, yellow-sui

ehh.. will post up more pics in the next post. look forward to it! ^^

many thanks to ppl who have wished me too. a simple comment really made a big difference to me. THANK YOU AH.

**lastly, happy birthday Qianling. you r 1 yr older le.all the best in whatever u do in the future and hope all ur wishes come true.**

*`~Wedding~`*

went to my cousin's(whom i nv knew) wedding dinner. initally i didnt wanna go, but when i heard it was at marina mandarin, i changed my mind, thinking that food there would be fantastic HAHAHA.

it was real nice looking up.

couple cutting cake.

the food was so so leh.. i give it a 57/100. wa lao the portion for every course was so LITTLE.. i think the best of all was the sharks fin soup, mango sago dessert and the wine.

im starting to love wine O.o

keep going to the toilet after drinking the wine. while going back, there's this mini orchestra playing CANON!!! omg! LUCKY!! it's so nice! listening to it made me so happy sia =D i stayed till they finished playing. my table ppl must be thinking that im shitting or something y taking such a long time hahaha.yoha~~

bro & me!angie & me!cousins =)family~!it was hard taking this pic.. see that guy's happy drunk face ARGH -_-"the wedding gifts! cute(^^,)

congratulated the newly weds and really hoped they'll live happily ever after. sometimes i really hate going wedding dinners, cuz it makes me wanna get married too >.<~ hahaha

-TATA! \(^.^)/-

wanted to blog last nite, but was too slpy so i napped abit. scarly napped from 7.30pm to 9.34am(now)

FINALLY! its the end of my 3wks posting in wd45. time flies. i've learnt alot from here & there, and also, made quite a few frenz.

smiles~~(pity jen wasn't there. we'll miss u!)

somehow i think my CI looks younger than me -_-"

a nearly-century old patient gave these to me.(part of my bdae wishes came true. i received FLOWERS!! lol)

btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY to LIYI!!! may all ur wishes come true=) 4 more days and it'll be my turn! =DD

If life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

so pissed off by the bloody lazy stupid DORIS today.

ME
"...... Now, for some personal reasons, i would like to request my PRCP back to SGH. Also i think if my PRCP is at TTSH i could not adapt cope as all my postings ever since year 1 is at SGH. Im so sorry for the changes made and the trouble for you to go through but i really hope it can be done as this is really important to me. Sorry for the inconvenience caused."

Idoitic old woman

"...... Since you have a provisional employment from TTSH & as per your request, your name has been submitted to TTSH. I am not able to make chnages to the posting as and when students change their decision. I hope you would understand"

walao when i called that fucker she hang up on me somemore w/o even me explaining much. KNN CCB. curses. almost EVERYONE says that she is too lazy to change the timetable lor. i was really desperate but sincere in my apologies and hope she'll understand. WALAO! CB! really curse her. hang up on me! i hate ppl who hang up on the phone so rudely. ARGH. she shd juz get sacked by MOE, lose that stupid fuckin high-class ACCENT and juz be a taitai at home la. fuck man. i dun curse ppl usually but this DORIS really is an lazy bitch who is not at her room everytime ppl need her.

doris u better eat and drink healthy cos 1 day, I might be THE ONE nursing u. juz take care of urself bitch.

we MUST realise how fortunate we are, like; to have our own handphones, mp3,and not to mention, basic needs like to have a nice house to live in and also eyes to see.
went for home nursing. visited an blind uncle's hse and really, his living condition is bad(its like those small flats u see in NKF shows) he lives alone and could hardly take care of himself as he can hardly walk. blind and immobile; can u imagine that? not to mention, his hse is very untidy. but although he's living a life like that, he kept a toothless smiling face and joked with us most of the time, which i thought it was very admirable.
upon leaving his hse, he kept holding our hands, thanking us for visiting and at that very moment, i forced myself to choke back my tears. i thought, how can something so so SO simple make this man happy? and nowadays, people are still NOT contented with wad they have!(seriously i hate those stupid kids who always spend their parents $$. EARN URSELF LAH! *argh so angry*)

got the comment from my sn that im simple minded. again i've heard of some1 saying that to me b4. meaning? looked up in the dictionary. simple-minded = foolish, feeble-minded. -___-"

-off to jog~! tata! =D-

emo ='/

Get to know urself better. try it HERE!

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. (HAHAHA YEAAAA!!!)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. (ooOoohhh i see.)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (o.O)?

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. (O.O)!

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (yes education is indeed very VERY IMPORTANT.)

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. (lol nursing sure is secure & steady pom pi pi.)

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. (i hope i dont stop trying! =)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. (yes very TRUE)You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. =D

personally i find this quiz quite accurate esp the type of bf & the job part. do try it and get to know urself better! =D

Sweety - 爱是怎么一回事

-tata!- (^^)V

yea~! finally can blog w/o feeling tired hahah.

went to AH for mass casualty today. meeting they all 7.45am @ queenstown i 7.10 wake up. walao so gan chiong, but still managed to get there on time. it was fun being there, with most of us posing as patients who were bombed in the train station. i posed as Patrick, a male who had bleeding ear & foot. LOL and the most funny thing that happened to me was that i was in the same rm with that terrorist who placed the bomb and had a gun(watergun lol) with him. it was discovered by the doc(omg quite gd-looking) and snatched away from him. walao so funny la! i laughed till stomach pain can hahah. den the terrorist still struggling to keep the gun in his pocket -_-" can laugh till peng sia

also so happy to see my classmates after like 5wks? lol haven changed 1 bit. still as crazy as ever hahah.

emo-princexx cya on wed at 45!! =D

YJ!! gd lucks on monday =)

i must not eat mac le omg no fries no fries no fries fat fat fat cannot eat oily oily oily. no more mac ARGH

丸子 - 愛你卡農

Step Up

Canon(rock verson; cai min YOU!!)

-that's all folks!-