BLUE OCT.

:D this is the first time im organising something hahaa. hope i dont screw this up! :))

i feel so vulnerable at home. that devil/satan just threw a bottle(glass!) of ketchup on my feet. i got many small cuts from that. mom bought noodles for me, he threw it on the floor. after than he threw the chair next to me; it broke.

i am thinking of sueing him man. thinking.
how i really wish i can get married and get out of the house. this is really killing me..

hais.. i really really REALLY wanna move out.. that man is crazy.. drunk and threatened to strangle me.. said hurtful things like 'take what degree go and die better.' im alone in the house with him somemore. sighs. talk about blood ties. god.. pls send someone here to save me.. god.. can you hear me.. im so depressed now.. life seemed so meaningless. :'(

hais my self esteem is already so low.. he makes it sink down even further..

hot chocolate.

drizzly hazey cold outside. my hands are cold. my cheeks are cold. even my mind's cold. can somebody give me a big warm hug. nevermind if you're a stranger; i think im way too cold to even care.

night falls, the cold slowly creeps in icily into the bones of the poor little match girl, enticing her into the deep sleep of eternal death.