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what if a family member said 'your is yours, mine is mine' to you? haha i rather i get a deep stab wound from a robber than get that comment.

i am terribly depressed at home.. guardian angel are you seeing this.. do your job and save me..

blogging post night shift. was so tired that i slept and drooled on the train ride home. hahaha so unglam man. hmm bought these vit c pills to boost my immunity. this swine flu thing is starting to scare me, cuz hopsitals are taking all these extreme measures to keep it swine flu free. anyways, i hope reseachers find a vaccine for it soon and keep this flu in check.

yawns. i better go drool on my pillow instead. tata!

she's is not saying.. and you are not staying...

25.04.09

the food i give it a 55/100. sucks totally. if it wasnt that i was starving, i wouldnt eat it.

anyway, to total it up, if next year i were to be invited to go again, i'll be the 1st to reject. yeah. its that bad.

i am feeling so miserable NOW.

i didnt know im selfish, STUPID, irresponsible, stubborn.

thanks. you have officially plunged down my already-low self esteem.

i must forevermore engrave this on my mind not to borrow anything from you, mr super nice-polite-nice to his sister. else i'll get scolding again and get so depressed and kill myself for being so worthless.

THANKS. you made my day man. how can i ever thank YOU.

bad post.

i really detest people who 'zhong se qing you', which means importance to ur gf/bf more than ur friend, moreover, ur SISTER. i guess my bro has a gf now, she is more important. i shd just go to hell. fancy being disturbed from my sleep for a fucking camera. i was sick you know! SICK. i panicked till i was so damn giddy that my head nearly hit the bed stand. for what man. just for the stupid camera coz he wants to take pics with his gf. WTF.

just for that he rushed me. and fyi, my bed frame has really sharp edges(the metal frame) you know, and my head nearly got pierced into it. i was so shocked that i cried. bloody cried from the shock. i guess one day if he were to scold and rushed me to get something, i might as well get hit by a car and die. 'never ever rush someone for something insigificant; something bad may happen' - that what i think.

dont feel like going to the D&D now since all these had happened. shit. i feel really fucked up. i thought i could enjoy myself, using the camera to take pics which i loved doing. now i gotta go there with swollen eyes, with no camera in hand. great. you and ur gf can go fuck each other and take really artistic pics outta it, and post it online to let everyone envy. have a great time.

Shakespear in LOVE♥

it's just a crush, nothing more, she hopes.
hopes always come crashing down for her.
better just keep her big mouth shut.
and away she struts.

hello stranger with a shining smile;
you have certainly impressed her with a small kind act that meant so big to her;
but you'll never know what it is, because she is not saying, and you're not staying.

well, that's what makes this world beautiful.
if you were to get whatever you desire,
then it'll be so boring.

HAHAHA being lame here!
but then again,
am i?

SUGAR.

groove to this song!


''call me your sugar!''

someone take my H/C... im having sugar rush!

FEELING HAPPY.

erm just let me shout out something first.



"WA SEH I FINISHED MY NIGHT DUTIES WA KAO SIA LAH SLEEPING DAY THEN DAY OFF WOAH KNN CCB SO EFFING SHIOKKKKKKKKKKK!!!"



okay. enough. haha.



let me just blog about yest gathering. its just a simple dinner at swensens at PS consisting of just some missys and drs and missys bf(naz!) i was really(REALLY) glad that i went, cuz i didnt feel like going cuz im doing night shift(2100hrs had to be there by 2000hrs cuz im a early freak), and the dinner starts at 1700hrs(WTF!) in the end i just thought: ai yah just go la. finish ur dinner then just leave lor.



well, didnt anticipate the dinner was quite an enjoyable one, with many of us joking around, playing with su ling's super duper cute darien and megan, taking loads of pics, and of course, i hope diana(chan!) have had a great time. didnt know that Naz had a canon 450D. the moment i got a hold on it, it was like... I DUNNO LAH. so unexplainable. it was so awesome. the comfortable grip, the wide range of aperture and shutter speeds.. the heavy metallic weight of it.. totally wowed me(till i had stomache. believe it or not.) the food so so-so though, nothing to scream about. same ol' fish lah.. chicken lah.. so boring lah...



hanging out with the drs turned out to be quite a fun thing actually. putting aside our heavy workloads, fuck those what stupid im-dr-im-more-suprior-than-you-nurse relationship. we were just a bunch of ordinary people who just wanna spend time enjoying ourselves. just to side track abit, abt the yangtze thing i was going to execute on my 21st bdae. im serious man! HAHAHAHAHA! and oh. my tongue stud. i hope ppl who just discovered it dont spread it around like: whoa she's got a tongue piercing! aiyo so scary. aiyo why do something like this blah blah blah.. hahaha i like it, so i have it. i dont go around picking fights, abusing drugs, smoke. in fact im just a typical average girl who has her own morals & principals to abide to, and i think ppl who stereotype others are just so superficial and idiotic. HAHAHAH!



anyway, what comes in must go out. so before i leave swensens, i took a picture of all of us, a photo that i'll keep with me for a long, long time :))) we shd all do this more often!



backtrack abit, i had dinner with YaJing & YueJun at nyny few days ago. YaJing that girlfriend-betrayer left early due to some reasons relating to the boyfriend. see? BGR rules over friendship. tsk tsk. not good. YJun and me caught up with the old times, the days we had in poly. i kinda missed those days. hahaha. come to think of it, nursing led me having the honour to know and meet ppl that'll changed my life(in a positive way)

19.04.09 Swensens @ PS.so many good friends surrounding me, what more can i ask for? indeed, i have to thank god for giving me so much already. :))

finally 3 days of the hazmat course is over. yea i passed everything. thank god. first 2 days was theory(which was easy). 3rd day at the SCDF academy was tiring man. we had to don those super hot protective clothings(almost fainted from heatstroke), i perspired like a roasted pig. also exposed to tear gas(which made me teared, DUH!) man it was a tiring day, but an eye open-ing experience. i really respect those civil defense ppl.. putting themselves on the frontline to save ppl. risky job man. salutes! i hope i'll nvr have to use hazmat skills.. scary if singapore were to have mass casualty or terrorist attacks. CHOY!

also another thing. guys there are like vultures. why? coz they keep staring like we're some prey or something. scary man. hahahah. freaky. i guess thats because they rarely see females around.. cannot blame them also.

went for a jog just now. feels good after an intense workout. as usual, i passed by the regular joggers. the aunties and uncles. mostly ppl in their 40s or 50s. then i was wondering, sia la wheres all the younger ppl?! no wonder nowadays ppl keep getting sick. see la! no exercise! you shd have at least 30 mins of exercise 3 times a week! hmm i guess the busy work schedule ppl have pulls them back from having a good hearty workout. for me i think im counted lucky cos i like exercising, and i dont have a strict curfew from my parents, so i can jog anytime out the streets.

i wanna get a new water bottle soon. my nike bottle is like leaking after 1 year of service.. i guess thats because i drop it every so often.. maybe i'll get a blue one next time! blue is nice! and also my running shoes are so worn out. needa get it soon too(before i get a fall on the slippery ground)

going to sui's sch for some filming for her proj.. hope everything goes well.

teddy'd hot stuff.

HAHAHA 8.5/10

i LIKE this show! LOL SO FUNNY. thumbs up!

SCHOLA with a BABI.

SCHOOL DAYS WITH A PIG

Cast: Satoshi Tsumabuki , Mieko Harada, Tomoko Tabata, Ren Osugi, Yumi Shimizu, Miu Naraki

This film is an emotional masterpiece based on a true controversial story that swept across Japan. A rookie primary school teacher (Satoshi Tsumabuki) suggests his students that they raise a pig, as a way to teach “the real connection between life and food.” He further proposes to eat the pig when it is fully grown. The deadline will be their graduation. The class gets a piglet together, and decides to take care of it in rotation. The students decide to name the piglet “P-chan”. Hesitant to take care of the P-chan at first, it wasn’t long before the students begin to cherish it. As time passes, the rookie teacher starts facing displeasures from his colleagues and the parents of his students. The children themselves begin to quarrel over the P-chan. However teacher and students manage to overcome the problems and learn a lot from this experience. As things has started to work in a positive way, the class has to face an even bigger dilemma a year later. 365 days of love and devotion showered on P-chan, it has grown big. The deadline of the project is drawing near. They have to decide the fate of P-chan. Will they follow the initial objective of this project or…

Bad post.

fatigue. because of the workload and the roster. reeeaaalllyy tired. SIGHS. haven study yet. WALAO SIANNN.

also enough of the same old thing. what tired la.. what stress la. repeat repeat repeat. bet u guys think its annoying.

hais sian. got scolded by my bro for not washing the dishes. FUCK.. was the word he shouted... at me. he doesnt know this.. but it made me so sad. yes. i was very hurt. i even cried. c'mon its only the dishes man. you hurt a living thing's feelings over a NON living thing. hais. i dont see him treat his gf like that? in fact, i think he treats his gf more nicer than me, which im beginning to hate. DUDE IM UR BLOOD SISTER. im a scorpio, jealous by nature. hence i beginning to dislike her. the both of you can go eat shit. go fuck each other till ur vagina lacerates and ur dick rots. happy fucking each other!

man i feel so unwanted in the family. how? haissss..

i dreamt i was holding hands with ______. sia la. the worst thing is, i liked it. wth.
dreams will only be dreams.

oh man this sucks.

my dad seriously has a affair outside. CHINA GIRL. he's a loser man. a real jackass. i hope he'll regret all this when he gets old(i mean those really OLD old.) if i'm a man and am secretly seeing another woman outside, i wont let my family know. argh. what a dickhead.

twinkle twinkle lil' stars.. how i wonder..

music: Corrinne May - Five Loaves And Two Fishes.

yes.. im THAT bored, and emo from listening to emo songs!

aRgGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHhhhHHHhHhhhh!!

so bored im re-watching all the vcds, animes i have.(hoping it'll put me to sleep.)

and suisui! where the heck r you! ive called ur phone so like a bagazillion times...

sometimes i think some ppl on facebook are so obliviously annoying or maybe just plain pretentious, wanting compliments. why? cuz theres this box where they can write whatever feelings they want, and publish it for everyone to see. well yea theres completely nothing wrong with that.

the thing im so irritated about is they write something(bad) about themselves, others reply on it(and i mean nice replies!), and the former keeps like fishing for more comments(compliments). a good eg. would be:

A(obnoxious moron): -my hair sucks totally.-

Z(random person being nice): hey ur hair doesnt. its nice actually.

A: oh? it doesnt?

Z: neat.. i guess.

A: really? in what way?

Z: errr...

yea. this idiotic A is like keeps on and on fishing for more compliments.. WHICH IS SO ANNOYING CAN! hahaha~! seriously! cracks me up man.. if you think that im the only one thinking this way, hell no?! LOL i brought this up during small chit chats with my friends and they too think these category of ppl is so irritating. see! evidence! LOL.. i actually feel abit sad for these ppl man.. hahaha..

its 2.05am now.. still cant get to sleep. my body clock is so effed up..