swimming in my tears.

sighs. first day of the year something like this crashed all my new hopes of 2009.

sometimes i think my life isnt worth anything.

how..?

okay the church bells rang for the new year at exactly 12:00. i gotta go and face the music. tata everyone hope your new yr isnt as sucky as mine yea.

i had my last day of 2008 spent fruitfully, have you?

again, a big call out to everyone; HAPPY 2009!!!!!!!!!!!! CHEERS!!!!! =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YR!
gotta set a new list of new yr resolutions for 2009! anyways some things on my 2008 agenda was fulfilled eg :

-im a REGISTERED staff nurse now and i've passed my 6mths probation. (i must improve on my knowledge and skills everyday.)
-i managed to sit on a rollercoaster. (woo hoo!)
-i got a tongue piercing. (bleah =p)
-i've made new friends. (thx to sui & fairuz)
-my room was painted one of my fave colors.
-my bro and i on better terms now. (oh yeah.)

thank you God, for giving me the things i want, surrounding me with angels called friends, and a family i can lean on anytime. out of the billions and billions of people living on this world, although not as famous or rich or good looking or brainy as others, im really fortunate already. thank you.


junno & koki! kyaaaa ^^ why so little camera time one.. stupid kame & jin.. act cool look shitty.

nice weather tonight.. got the christmas mood =]
have a good time everyone ` ~ *

the second the girl saw the picture, her heart took a big leap.

huh? what just happened?

"dont tell me IT happened." she mumbled.

yes, IT happened;

& its out of her control.

what exactly did happened then.

edward cullen's old world behaviours;

simply to die for.

"you're like a drug, my own personal brand of heroin."

*awwwww~

meow.

LOVE♥FIGHT!!

Date of release: 15th November, 2008

Synopsis
Minoru (Kento Hayashi) has spent most of his life being protected by his spunky female best friend Aki (Kie Kitano). Fed up, he decides to take up boxing. However, just as he manages to get stronger than Aki she becomes obsessed with boxing herself.

I SO WANNA WATCH THIS!!! THE THEME SONG IS UBER NICEEEEE!!! aki's moves are so strong! powerrrrrr.

Trailer: my fave scene --> 0:50~0:52


Theme song:

wth?

apparently i made a joke(i forgot what it was seriously), this dr burst out laughing and slapped my back so hard. i was quite irritated(HOI PAIN LEH) then i replied " hey pain la. i girl leh!".. he laughed even harder. i was like---wth?

i was thinking: dont i look like a girl? i look like a guy is it? whats up with the yo brother thingy, same things applies to my male colleague...

i gotta go do some self evaluation...

wow. what she told me kinda freaked me out. it cant be true.. can it?

i have no idea. seriously. is/was it that bad?

hmm; no. i should judge people(of course not by the cover duh!) myself instead of letting others influencing me.

fell in love with this song the moment i hear it :) woah i hearts alternative big big ahhhh.

just go with the flow, and expect the unexpected. hence, it wont hurt so badly when something doesnt go your way or what you initially hoped for.
but in the end, it WILL still hurt.

qianling, stop whining. argh.

Only Hope ~ ` *

Mandy Moore - Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul

It's the one that I've tried to writeover and over again

I'm awake in the infinite cold

But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

And pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars

Of your galaxy dancing and laughing

and laughing again

When it feels like my dreams are so far

Sing to me of the plans that you have

for me over again

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

And pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny

I'm giving you all of me

I want your symphony

Singing in all that I am

At the top of my lungs

I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down

And I lift my hands

And pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I pray to be only yours

I know now you're my only hope

ps: people once commented that i have christian-ised thinking. hmm. a point to think it over; i just find christian songs comforting and peaceful.

before i go to work..

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1) travel out of this red dot.
2) experience love.
3) have my family and friends smiling at me at my bedside before i die.

Three Names You Go By:
1) Qian Ling.
2) Ah Bong.
3)芊玲

Three Screen Names You Have Had:
1)芊
2) qL
3)Jellybean.

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
1) my height?
2) my nose(cuz its blessed with not so many blackheads ha)
3)i really dont know.

Three Things That Scare You:
1) Heights.
2) Death.
3) Rejection.

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
1) Wallet.
2) Hp.
3) Waterbottle.

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1) White spag + a turquoise cardigan.
2) my worn out berms.
3) erm.. undies? haha

Three Of Your Favorite Bands/Musical Artists:
1) Enrique Iglesias
2) Rui En
3) W-inds

Three Of Your Favorite Songs:
1) Christina Aguilera - Keeps Gettin' Better
2) Rui En - 慢舞
3) Miho Fukuhara - Himawari

Three Things You Want In A Relationship:
1) A best friend.
2) Hey ure thinking what im thinking B1? i think i am B2.
3) Communication.

Three Physical Things About The Preferred Sex That Appeal To You:
1)Sexyback. YEAH!
2) Those protruding veins on forearms.
3) Eyessssssss.

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1) Sports.
2) Reading.
3) Lisening to music.

Three Things You Want To Do Really Badly Right Now:
1) Go sentosa on a sunny day with friends & get sun burnt.
2) Get long hair.
3) Go clubbing with good friends.

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
1) Doctor.
2) Nurse.
3) Teacher.

Three Places You Want To Go On Vacation:
1) Japan.
2) Venice.
3) Taiwan.

Three Kid's Names You Like:
1) Kerby.
2) Gabriel.
3) Jean.

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
1) I have mood swings.
2) I shop till i drop.
3) I look at guys.

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
1) I pick my nose.
2) I talk like one at times.
3) I look at girls.

beautiful city lights.

so psychedelic right?

wow. somehow i always thought ppl who are observant are powerful. maybe its due to their ability to see through ppl and spot invisble worries or hidden weaknesses. it will be even worst if they're scheming cuz you'll never(EVER) guess what they're thinking the next millisecond. scary hor?

well, somehow god seems to be arranging me to meet these type of ppl anytime, anywhere, be it workplace, society. HAHAHAH, indeed, life can be SO unpredictable sometimes(in good & bad ways)

but hey, what can i say more in this? my bestie is one of the observant peeps. and the wonderful thing is: i LOVE her! woots! :)))

contradicting? i know! lucky im born random enough to accept these things =D

elvin ng & rui en. both my fave artises =]

BGRs!

if im drunk, i'll just laugh, dance or jump around and go to sleep. i wonder how some ppl still have the energy to fight, scold, create trouble. i REALLY wonder.

on a lighter note:
read ly's post and realised she's seeing someone! oh gosh! happy for her also =] i'll pray & hope this guy treats her well and bring her everlasting happiness.

wow, friends around me are like getting attached. yes, and wad the hell?! my bro is attached recently too!(kao! is it the mating season now?) and the most impt thing. they are HAPPY. okay, ive heard first hand information from gals who fought with their significant other. but then i thought, isnt this part of an r/s? life wouldnt be interesting with everythings smooth sailing.(haha this is 1 of my philosophies in life=)

sighs. when will my knight in shining armour come and sweep me off my feet too. i remembered that when i was young, i loved the cinderella story so much so i thought my ending was gonna be like hers too. eventually as i mature i realised i was terribly wrong. fairytales do NOT exist.

well, although it doesnt exists, life still goes on. there'll still be day & night, students still have to study and adults have to go work to earn their keep. that handicapped uncle/auntie will still be
there at the mrt station performing to receive money from kind-hearted or guilty-stricked passer-bys.

here's a quote i saw somewhere on the net: i rather have a lonely heart, than a broken heart. wow, how true is that. so true, so true *old man's tone of speaking.

as what sui told me before(which i STRONGLY agree), i should thank god that i have 4 working limbs, eyes to see beautiful rainbows, mouth to eat delicious foods blah blah. yea, im really greatful to god. so, i shd not be so greedy to ask for more eg like; i want to be rich, i want to be pretty, i want to have a boyfriend etc etc. let fate decide what lies in the future for me baaaaaaaaaaa

oh wells, here's a song to end it off. enjoy!

life's kinda stressed for me.

how i wish i can just go to some beach, lay under the hot sun, looking over the seas, listening to my fave songs on my mp3(yes! i got my mp3 already! woohoo)

yea. just indulge in life's simple pleasures :)

love the girl's look, pin guans's smile =]