random much.

random notes:

-been thinking of getting a 2nd tatt. :D THINKING.

-really cant stand ppl's fb statuses going like 'dont want to have dinner alone' or 'going clubbing alone' or 'im so lonely cheer me up'. ZOMG get a life.as if your life is gonna get better posting statuses like that. goodness!

-i think i am asexual. i cant seem to like/love anyone. im neither straight nor crooked. what am i??!!

-i wanna go clubbing soon.

-im kinda picking my nose now.

sudden end. goodnights world.

EVERYTIME.

i remembered the 1st time i saw this mv, was at the amk mrt station, taking the train home after school. i liked Mark then, and i didnt know why.
but now i know. its his laughing eyes and his height!(oh man i love tall ppl)

ANTI YOU, JACKASS.

a HO pissed me off. i dont discrimate this whole batch of drs, but this asshole has really flared me up.

i have been observing this little fucker here bootlicking and sucking his pathetic tongue up to his colleagues and superiors. fine. nothing to do with me. but what he really makes me angry(hell angry) is that he's not patient orientated. i dont see his passion. AT ALL.

and what made me said all of the above is for a reason, cuz i have encountered his sickening acts for MYSELF and it irks me. i hope his superiors can see what type of treatment he is delivering and grade him for it(if i were to grade, it'll be a U--> ungraded.)

haha. attitude and conduct like that, i wonder: will he be ever make it to the top. aiya, maybe yes, but as the saying goes, what comes around goes around.

DBSK

oh changmin so handsome <3

:)

hmm bored tuesday. jio-ed ppl out, either they are working, or out with their boyfriends. random enough, i dropped a visit to my aunt at yck area. :)
i really admire her so much. i didnt tell her before; but she was the one who inspired me to become a nurse, like she was. she had been single all her life, dependent on only herself. sometimes i think wouldnt she feel lonely living on her own? but heck care all that. shes really one woman i respect so much.

anyways, i loved the peace route towards her house. passed by buzzing hawker centres, religious temples, and my fave part, the long pavement with grassy slopes. it gave me kinda a country feel you know. away from the busy city. maybe my next visit i'll bring my dilly along too; there are quite a few nice scenes to snap :))

this is what i was listening the whole journey towards her house:

poor thing!

jellybean is sick. running green snot and running a fever. and bloody menses is running too. great; she will go for a run tml morning. *giddy ++

my life would suck without GLEE. :(

season 2 come quickkkkkkk plssssssss :)

new tattoo love :)

marry for love. purely LOVE.

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23. The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US . Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.

An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.The other couple in the picture are Nick’s parents. Excited to see their son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube , listening to a song from her husband and friends.

At the reception, Katie had to take a few rests. The pain did not allow her to stand for long periods.

Katie died five days after her wedding day.

seriously, i kinda teared abit reading this. this is true love; not ur superficial love you see nowadays(like you only like that person cuz he/she is handsome/pretty.) Nick married Katie despite the short time she had in this world. she was going to DIE. how many ppl would still marry the person they love even when they know that their other half is dying? not to mention they think their loved one is still the most beautiful person in the entire world, when he/she looks like only a bag of grey skin and bones. the answer is: not many ppl.

well, i think this is true love. really. love transcends all. :)

Nick and Katie; you guys are so lucky to have found each other.

old school song; like 1981?!

I LOVE THIS SONG (:

mindless yet inspiring ramblings(?)

on my way home, i saw an old couple, both with silver white heads holding hands and taking their evening walk. i start to wonder; there are so many people(like billions and billions)how does one find the other one? be it straights or gays.

somehow, i feel that to be able to find that one you wanna hold hands with is a miracle. ahahaaaa crap. i wanna hold hands. any hand also can i think. cute little girl, charming young man, old friendly grandma; all are welcome.

hmm reading The Alchemist always never failed to inspire me into the ideas of the Soul of the World, no matter how many times i read it. Even after a hard day's work, reading the book motivates me and i'll start thinking; hey although its hard, this is my dream man. and although its long hours staying/working in the same place, its okay as it allows me to be in contact with different persons, broadening my mind out to the world.

and also, to me, thanks from a greatful patient doesnt have to mean giving you verbal compliments or positive written feedbacks. Language of the World; the bright twinkling of their eyes and a smile is way enough. yeah, his book really had a life-enhancing impact on my life. so glad i stumbled upon it at the library :))

okay maybe you think im talking crap here. but if you do read the book and understand it, you know what i mean. but unfortunately, ppl around me dont read it. ahahahahaa only Heather does(shes my soulmate!)

alrights gotta end here. goodnights world :) yawns~

he's in a different league.

listening to n'sync - that girl will never be mine
ahahaaaa so bubblepop boyband-ish. i know.

i still rmb how crazy i was in love with Lance Bass; and still am now! :D so shuai la!!(but gay! haiz)

はじまりはいつも雨 ♥♥♥

2 of my fave jap singers. COMBINED! :D bossa novaaaaa.

Crazierrr.

life.is.so.arghhhhh. boring.

will upload the trip to the zoo soon on facebook haha.

wa lao i look so damn tanned(like an indian!) lor. alot(i mean really ALOT) of patients or relatives have been asking me: are you malay? i have had 2 ppl asked me this today. 2 yesterday too. wa laosssss. whens my tan gonna fade away.. hais i know no matter how much whitening creams i put, it just wont go away. sometimes i really wished i have the the skin of those fair girls, who look delicate and pretty being fair-skinned. right now i look like a big brown strong buffalo. SHITZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

life's kinda mundane recently. except for the smu fest coming on the late jan/early feb, its like so boring.

work is like blahhhhh too. and yeah. there's this particular dr i wanna comment abt(not gonna mention his name here; and yes its a HE) he gives me the impression of wking for the SAKE of wking. i cannot feel the passion of being a dr in him u know. he talks to nurses badly, patients.. like blah.. heckcare. hmm then i was looking at him, thinking: why the fark you become a dr. FOR WHAT. annoying u know, that someone can have the brains to become one, but NO INTEREST in it. wa lao, i would kill to have his brains man. but then again, being a nurse is more my cup of teh so yeah, a missy i shall be heehee. ok enough of mindless ramble here. gotta sleep. morning shift tml. goodnites world :)

2010!

minutes to midnight.
2010.
happy new year to all. :DD

may this year be fruitful for me, i hope.

again, happy new year to you :)

♪ the last song.

a big hole in my pocket.

Fujifilm-->Polaroid
Canon-->SLR
Nikon-->DSLR

______-->Point&Shoot
hmm olympus utough fits in the blank perfectly :]

DBSK♥

my friends introed me this grp of korean boys. damn. im hooked. (and damn again, they looked so perfect.. and so........ gay.)

nobody nobody but who?

i wonder who reads my blog anyway. its so dead. theres only me here.

night shift tonight. wish me luck okay! :D

its great to have (great)friends!!

typing this at 0150hrs 6/12/2009.

hmm boring sunday.. have to wk somemore. big time yawns.
at least ive enjoyed my sat. timbre with friends :) so come on allie get ur butts up and start to work!

and i cant stop shaking my butt to this:

arghhhhhh my nose..

still sick. damn.. at least.. assignment is handed up and my back feels lighter.. and heard this song on 987 that somehow made me danced a bit :)



the lyrics are quite meaningful.

being sick SUCKS.

having terrible flu and fever.. took some panadol and piriton.. ahahaha nowadays panadol's like my 灵丹妙药.. its works like MIRACLE man. SERIOUSLY. even i have flu, i'll take that.. it really helps. shall bring that everywhere i go, in case i fall sick again hoho.(hais im falling sick every now and then. hate being sick.)

needa find time to cut my hair too. its so long till my mid-back already. hmm next wk i hope. arghhhh a long long list of tasks for me to complete. cut hair la, pack room la, bring mom out for a good meal(HIGHEST PRIORITY!), go swimming, shopping(shucks i needa de-stress!), get Wenqian&Sui plus gang out for a proper gathering.. so many things to do. and what else.. if maybe if theres time left, maybe i'll just head down sgh there to donate blood.. hmm last time donating was like what.. 1 year ago? yeah.. if im there i can go visit my sgh friends! oh god.. how i missed sgh so much.. those were the days..

ok enough! time to go to sleep.. good girl must sleep early(BULLSHIT AHAHAHA) goodnite world ♥

lucky i didnt scream and wake the whole family up ahaha.

its 3.10am now. and i just had a bad dream. so bad i woke up instantly(yea like IMMEDIATELY) and started to perspire. haven had a bad dream in a long time thats why im in a state of shock. popped some meds, hoping it'll make my headache go away and help me sleep better.

i guess im too stressed on assignments and overworked at work. chill allie chill.

emo nemo :(

been listening to 開始懂了 by 孫燕姿.



seeing this, i thought; why cant the david just acknowledge that his friend is gay? just tell him he cant accept him as an lover but still as a friend.. its difficult, but i think if you're his best friend, you would accept him for who he is.
anyways.. im so in love with the songs played in this video.. sounds very soulful.. can feel the singer's love. you can dl it here. 'Beautiful' & 'Its You' enjoy..

♥ SUNDAY TODAY! :D

yeah sunday today! OFF! hoorahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
going swimming then ion with bestie today. cant wait! ahahaaaa cmon ruzie lets go free willyyyyy.

and yeah guess what.. i feel so much lighter after thinking so!

yupyup. :) im smiling to myself now(am i mad ahahaha)

decision for LIFE.

ahahaaa. ive kinda decided what i want. i dont think i wanna get married or have a boyfriend.
why you'll ask. 'aiya she say now but she'll def change her opinion later la'--you might think. and yeah, at an youthful age of 21, why am i saying this?

cause i have lost faith in guys.

judging from my father and many(hell many! omg) instances from my girlfriends, im quite sure that i prefer being single.

cause im very certain i wont be so lucky to bump onto a good one, so might as well dont even get involved in the first place. a waste of my time. i rather spend the precious time gaining knowledge studying or go travelling.

oh wells. hmm somehow i think ive grown up a bit :)

i thought i could go out on friday.. hais in the end, NOT.

so shingz la my life. haha.

maybe this cheered me up a wee bit..

well kinda feeling a bit boomz :)

different worlds.

i know you. you dont know me.
so i keep quiet, till you see me.
you saw me, but you didnt really see me.

KNS WHAT TALKING ME.

small eyes gentle smile. i met;

yes you jumped out of the picture and greeted me, but i was too shocked, i shoo-ed you off haha. oh wells!

gotta find you.

how i wish somebadee would sing this to me too.

my burdens are so so heavy.. i can barely breathe..

if you have 50k to give me.. i'll marry you. im serious.

no mood at all. because...

i shall stop thinking and go to sleep. nights world and whoever is reading this.

DEMORALISED.

dumb reg. no leadership AT ALL. what a fucktard. didnt manage to save the pt(well he was really unsavable), at least you shd thank the team(of nurses) who put in so much effort to save the pt right. no. instead, he went to our 'big one' and told her that we were incompetent. felt so demoralised sia. blah. dont even wanna take his words seriously. disgusting reg anyway. used touch here touch there when he was more junior. hope you drown and choke in your own shit.

what a fucktard;

qianling is no. 7!

captain's ball competition today. didnt know that there was so many colleagues that could play so well. ahaha my team didnt win any games but yeah we gave our best and had a bloody great time. that's wad it really matters isnt it. i had a great laugh too during our cam whoring session.

sighs tml both morning shift and school after work. ahahaaa will be damn chui. what to do!!! this is the path i chose. arghhhh. 'you make the bed, you better lie on it.'

well goodnitght world, im gotta go la la land now. many ♥♥♥!

i gotta feelinggggggg.

jellybean is so stupid. always liking things/people it cant have. stupid dumb dumb.
see la, heart race like F1 yet nobody save you. ORBI GOOD. GOOD GOOD GOOD.

hello monday i hate you.
hello monday i REAAAAAALLLYY hate you.
hello monday fuck you :D

thanks for shining on sunday mr SUN!

went to the pool today alone; cuz NONE of my friends were free. oh wells so i went alone. swam abit(really abit.. like only 3 laps ahaha) and sun tanned after that. so effing lazy i tell you. hmm anyway next week would be a busy week for me(work is enough to kill me, whatmore im starting sch! my god!) so i must chill and re-energise and get ready for the pain LOL.

so yeah.. a little me to me time, listening to corrinne may's angelic voice, lying on the beach chair, i let myself go. the world seemed so slow and peaceful(ahahaaaa corrinne may's songs indeed works wonders) didnt really get a tan.. but my mind got zen-ed.

hmm nothing to blog already ahahaaa. so gotta end here. new week ahead god bless me(and everyone else!)

PS: i can see a pretty rainbow blinking christmas tree from my window! hmm its from the household opp. my block. so pretty to see something like this on a dark quiet night. ahahaaa so weird man if they were to know that im looking at their tree from so far away LOL they'll think im a stalker or spy or something hee. :D

did i just see what you thought?

i love this song currently. so much meaning in it. (:

blog hopping now when the world is snoozing away into the night. hmm kinda fun to learn how interesting the way some people think; be it my friends, strangers, the guy you have been crushing on, or even that quiet weird girl sitting around the corner. random thoughts like how tomorrow's gotta turn out, how hungry he/she is now, how to remove that big pus acne blah blahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

then i came across some like this(its not copied from this stranger's blog but this is my interpretation from it.)

i knew i loved you before i met you.

so is this fate, destiny? how can you love that person when you didnt even met him/her?

the saints were born earlier, to make sure that they prepared for jesus's birth.

so you loved me before you met me, does it meant you already know that i'll appear in your life in the future?


hmm; an interesting point to think about. hmmmmmmmmm.
goodnight world. :]

BLUE OCT.

:D this is the first time im organising something hahaa. hope i dont screw this up! :))

i feel so vulnerable at home. that devil/satan just threw a bottle(glass!) of ketchup on my feet. i got many small cuts from that. mom bought noodles for me, he threw it on the floor. after than he threw the chair next to me; it broke.

i am thinking of sueing him man. thinking.
how i really wish i can get married and get out of the house. this is really killing me..

hais.. i really really REALLY wanna move out.. that man is crazy.. drunk and threatened to strangle me.. said hurtful things like 'take what degree go and die better.' im alone in the house with him somemore. sighs. talk about blood ties. god.. pls send someone here to save me.. god.. can you hear me.. im so depressed now.. life seemed so meaningless. :'(

hais my self esteem is already so low.. he makes it sink down even further..

hot chocolate.

drizzly hazey cold outside. my hands are cold. my cheeks are cold. even my mind's cold. can somebody give me a big warm hug. nevermind if you're a stranger; i think im way too cold to even care.

night falls, the cold slowly creeps in icily into the bones of the poor little match girl, enticing her into the deep sleep of eternal death.

twinkle twinkle lil' star, how i wonder what you are.

ahaha met up with Jane, Bern, Wan Lin at kenny rogers @ marina sq today. supposedly meeting time was 5pm, i arrived at 7pm.. SORRY! ahaha. Wan Lin's night shift somemore. have a peaceful night!

after eating(omfg 1st time i didnt manage to finish the chicken so wasted!!) Bern, Jane, me headed out to the esplanade to have some drinks. weird thou, its the 3 of us again. last time at the alley bar it was also the same company. at harry's we chatted, we laughed. i had this screwdriver drink; im so gonna learn how to make it ahahaa i love the taste of it! hmm looked for the recipe over the net to find out it's just a mix of vodka & orange juice. im gonna try to improvise it and make my own blend! :D

as i was saying, we were chatting and Bern said this phrase i think i'll remember it for the rest of my life. its a common phrase, yet its came along with such deep meaning. "when its meant to be happened, it'll happen. this is fate."
hmm fate. destiny. yeah maybe. what is your eventually would be yours qianling. yup. chill chill and go to sleep.

goodnight world. goodnight my love wherever you are; sweet dreams :)

realist; i am.

well if i know that nothing is gonna come out of it, i wont even look at it; even i desperately hope something would come out of it.

cause the higher you hope, the harder you crash.

recently i found a new side to myself; when im attracted to somebody, i tend to keep damn quiet and will avoid that person. SIA LA WHATS UP MAN. let that how to get boyfriend?! woah sometimes i kinda envy those flirtatious and chio girls. they can get the one they like ever so easily. i will stammer so badly and make a fool outta myself man. SHIT.

sounding so emo nemo here. hmm let me see; oh yeah. Leng's chalet on 3rd sept. so happy she invited me. happy happy. oh wait.. gotta attend course 8.30-5pm. shit. oh wells can always go after that. ahahaa yeah im looking forward to that :)

yeah work wise everything's so far so good. hais recently i got a new assignment.. to be a preceptor of a prcp student.. when i heard the news i was like wtf. dont know its me too competent or am i too dumb kenna being arrowed for this. i think its the latter lor. aiya dont know la. dont know what the kings and queens want. but i hope i dont mess things up for this student.. god pls bless me. arghhh still at the stage where i cant believe im going for my degree. kinda excited, kinda worried. fear of the unknown. one step at a time; go with the flow lor.

i keep telling myself; tml will be a better day qianling. believe. have faith.

i'm yourssssssss.

oh mommy!

i think i inherited my random-ness from my mom. why? because yesterday morning after night shift(i was so shag and looking like a zombie), she asked: qianling ah your 21st birthday coming leh why still no boyfriend yet ah faster find one leh. aiyo my girl so pretty why cannot find aiyo.

goodness i was like HUH WTH. ahaha love her random-ness sometimes(eg she can buy1 whole cake for me to eat on a random day; fyi i love cakes) but her comment kinda left me irritated and speechless. some things is not like you want it, you get it. actually i wanna reply her that im so gonna stay single till my deathday ahaha no i did not; too tired and sound way too negative early in the morning. might ruin her day ahaha.

hais. anyways i cant go Jane's chalet on 22th. arghhh. dont know why im so sad abt it D: oh wells there's always next time ahahaha. hmm gonna watch pixar's UP later with Diana and Shikin. its been so long since i've hang out with them.. and gonna settle my degree stuffs too. can you believe it.. im going for my degree. omgoodness. jellybean is gonna pack her bags and head off for school (:

well, some doctors can be such himbos when it comes to bimbotic nurses. i thought too highly of them. oh well, being highly educated doesnt mean you have common sense. ahahaha WHATTTTTT.

not feeling healthy :(

feeling sick. aching everywhere.
hmm i guess i'll go for a stroll at the canal near my house. bringing my dilly along for a walk too.
ahahaha i guess despite being a tad bit unwell, Nora's sms did cheer me up. STRETCHHHHH! :)

ps: hello Yue Jun!(ahahaa so random are you reading it now :D)

YOU.

spotted you. but it is really you?

hello you.

i do hope its really you.

but then again,

WHO ARE YOU?

:D

old world ideas #17: lock the heart and throw the key away into the boundless blue sea;

hey i tried to be zen today!

i am not a very patient person, i daresay. yet, i survived today without flaring up at anyone despite the workload. well, I THINK I DID GREAT TODAY. :)))

i wanna take my camera out and go on a date with me. just me and myself. i will just shoot whatever and however i like. no one to tell me what to do. i just go snap snap snap.

the brillant blue sky. the merciless busy roads. the forgotten alleys. the old soul buildings. the stark wrinkles of old people. the vibrant city lights. the dull rusty vehicles.

the thought of it.. woah.. SO DAMN SHIOK.

work today was.. so-so, except i had some really stubborn patients. to be serious, i actually kinda LIKE annoying patients. im a weirdo right. YES I LOVE irritating patients ahahaha. the more annoying the better.
cuz i think rather than those quiet quiet hush hush patients scary. they dont tell me anything, i wouldnt know anything. but dear god, i hope you will not assign all these kind of patients(annoying) to me. just afew would do ahaha.

seriously im thinking of getting a bike liscence. since i've no boyfriend now(and i think im gonna remain single forever), why not? my family dont bothers abt me; my bro heck cares me. he only cares abt his girlfriend. my dad, what he does all day is drink drink drink. my mom? forget it. im like a stranger in the family. i go home, i shut the door and stay there whole day. so why not? i shd do the things i like, pursue the things i want in life!

omg i want a vespaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. :D we'll see!

i should be nonchalant when ppl going to faint. fancy being accused of behaving hysterically when someone gonna faint. okay. then what. i shall let you die there. go to hell then. bye bye.

hysterical is better than being nonchalant okay. at least it means something is being done to help that person. get your facts right bitch.

DRIVE IN LIFE.

i found my aim once again and im working towards it :)
god pls give me power to do this.

happy happy.

fucking pissed. imagine this. you have made this appointment with someone like 1 wk in advance(and u pushed away other more impt appts for this), and when this day comes, you overslept. its 4pm now. this person only MESSAGED ONCE to remind you at 10am. yea true its my fault that i overlooked the time. but the BEST thing is that when u contact this person and said ure sorry, he says: "due to the long wait, im meeting someone else. =x"

WTF! this person shd have AT LEAST CALLED right? isnt it something ppl normally do? A does not reply to B sms. B shd CALL right? common sense!! duh. and wtf is up with the reply?! "due to the long wait, im meeting someone else. =x" FUCK! and who do you think you are? a superstar who can diss ppl off just like that? or you have SO MANY FRIENDS to choose from that you can just kick ppl off like that? and wads with the =x. what?! you're so popular that you have to reject ppl gently by putting this fucking thing is it?--> =x oooo im so honored to be gently rejected by you. oh man you gotta be kidding me. this is so hilarious. well, you can go have fun with ur friends all day long. i dont really care. cos if i said that, you're not even a friend to me. in fact, you cant even be a friend if you said: "due to the long wait, im meeting someone else. =x" AHAHAHAHA WTF! im actually laughing at this. LMAO.

ahahaaa forget all that shit crap. here's the reason why this morning i overslept cos i only came home at 5am. pictures! :D CLICK!
happy birthday to both Caren and Shikin:)) the chalet was AWESOME and ktv was EUPHORIA man hahaha. indeed, im so lucky to have friends. thank god. :D

something to write abt the chalet.

♥great beehoon, great cake, cool games like balloon fighting bursting and musical dance stopper, great host!, great company.

something to write abt the KTV session.

♥loads of screaming, jay chou rapping, andy lau's toilet bowl, euphoric Mayday songs, jolin 72 bian(QY shd have come man!) etc etc!

ahaha!! too bad. i think he's not straight. Queojos tan bonitos tienes! say that to me i'll just faint on the floor..

ICHIHARA HAYATO.

虹の女神

both of them loved each other, but no one said so. a beautiful yet tragic romance that never happened. tomoya and aoi. if you love someone, tell them. dont wait till its too late, and regret it for the rest of your life.

i like this name Aoi. i think its a pretty name. Aoi. see this trailer here.

and also.. i wanna watch this!

hahah so funny.. but shiats. i cant find this ANYWHERE. :( CHECK IT OUT, YO!

woahhh.. long side burns.. :D

i need love.

today i had 2 persons advicing me to be more confident. one is patient, one is my colleague.

i was doing this dressing for the pt, dont know why she out of the blue commented that i looked pretty. i was like wtf. then i told her no.. i'm not. then she insisted: yes you are! i was like HUH?! argh.. pls stop joking. then she suddenly said: ya ah girl ah, you must more be more confident.. you are pretty and kind-hearted you know. HAHAHA i was thinking: she must be joking, or being sarcastic. but she seemed nice enough to me, didnt looking like a liar. i just plainly smiled and finished my work.

my colleague(preceptor!) also adviced me the same thing too. on job wise. i'm competent, i can teach others too, though i have only 1 yr experience. just believe in yourself.

how i wish there's this magic portion that can boost my confidence level. just a bit will do.

pink dotty.

not free to go! anyway, i supporting this event.. 100%.

just punch me in the gut.

hahaha i wanna bang my head on the wall. someone just stab me. hahaha nurses can be such gossipy creatures. LMAO. kill me!

last day of the GS HOMOs. i wish them good luck. its been great working with them. i'll definitely miss them. oh well, people come and go in this line. be it physically or spiritually. anyway, i wish the best for them. :))

mission accomplished.

yes.. im happy enough. at least i've tried. big thanks to juzmean, wan lin and caren :) thank you. now i can die in peace lol.

i love MVs like this.. blue sky, great weather, down to earth. :)

SORRY.

didnt know a simple comment of mine hurt somebody(i think). i didnt mean it.. it was just a joke. so sorry aj.

WHITE HORSE.

Taylor Swift   More CMT Music   More CMT Music Videos

what if a family member said 'your is yours, mine is mine' to you? haha i rather i get a deep stab wound from a robber than get that comment.

i am terribly depressed at home.. guardian angel are you seeing this.. do your job and save me..

blogging post night shift. was so tired that i slept and drooled on the train ride home. hahaha so unglam man. hmm bought these vit c pills to boost my immunity. this swine flu thing is starting to scare me, cuz hopsitals are taking all these extreme measures to keep it swine flu free. anyways, i hope reseachers find a vaccine for it soon and keep this flu in check.

yawns. i better go drool on my pillow instead. tata!

she's is not saying.. and you are not staying...

25.04.09

the food i give it a 55/100. sucks totally. if it wasnt that i was starving, i wouldnt eat it.

anyway, to total it up, if next year i were to be invited to go again, i'll be the 1st to reject. yeah. its that bad.

i am feeling so miserable NOW.

i didnt know im selfish, STUPID, irresponsible, stubborn.

thanks. you have officially plunged down my already-low self esteem.

i must forevermore engrave this on my mind not to borrow anything from you, mr super nice-polite-nice to his sister. else i'll get scolding again and get so depressed and kill myself for being so worthless.

THANKS. you made my day man. how can i ever thank YOU.

bad post.

i really detest people who 'zhong se qing you', which means importance to ur gf/bf more than ur friend, moreover, ur SISTER. i guess my bro has a gf now, she is more important. i shd just go to hell. fancy being disturbed from my sleep for a fucking camera. i was sick you know! SICK. i panicked till i was so damn giddy that my head nearly hit the bed stand. for what man. just for the stupid camera coz he wants to take pics with his gf. WTF.

just for that he rushed me. and fyi, my bed frame has really sharp edges(the metal frame) you know, and my head nearly got pierced into it. i was so shocked that i cried. bloody cried from the shock. i guess one day if he were to scold and rushed me to get something, i might as well get hit by a car and die. 'never ever rush someone for something insigificant; something bad may happen' - that what i think.

dont feel like going to the D&D now since all these had happened. shit. i feel really fucked up. i thought i could enjoy myself, using the camera to take pics which i loved doing. now i gotta go there with swollen eyes, with no camera in hand. great. you and ur gf can go fuck each other and take really artistic pics outta it, and post it online to let everyone envy. have a great time.

Shakespear in LOVE♥

it's just a crush, nothing more, she hopes.
hopes always come crashing down for her.
better just keep her big mouth shut.
and away she struts.

hello stranger with a shining smile;
you have certainly impressed her with a small kind act that meant so big to her;
but you'll never know what it is, because she is not saying, and you're not staying.

well, that's what makes this world beautiful.
if you were to get whatever you desire,
then it'll be so boring.

HAHAHA being lame here!
but then again,
am i?

SUGAR.

groove to this song!


''call me your sugar!''

someone take my H/C... im having sugar rush!

FEELING HAPPY.

erm just let me shout out something first.



"WA SEH I FINISHED MY NIGHT DUTIES WA KAO SIA LAH SLEEPING DAY THEN DAY OFF WOAH KNN CCB SO EFFING SHIOKKKKKKKKKKK!!!"



okay. enough. haha.



let me just blog about yest gathering. its just a simple dinner at swensens at PS consisting of just some missys and drs and missys bf(naz!) i was really(REALLY) glad that i went, cuz i didnt feel like going cuz im doing night shift(2100hrs had to be there by 2000hrs cuz im a early freak), and the dinner starts at 1700hrs(WTF!) in the end i just thought: ai yah just go la. finish ur dinner then just leave lor.



well, didnt anticipate the dinner was quite an enjoyable one, with many of us joking around, playing with su ling's super duper cute darien and megan, taking loads of pics, and of course, i hope diana(chan!) have had a great time. didnt know that Naz had a canon 450D. the moment i got a hold on it, it was like... I DUNNO LAH. so unexplainable. it was so awesome. the comfortable grip, the wide range of aperture and shutter speeds.. the heavy metallic weight of it.. totally wowed me(till i had stomache. believe it or not.) the food so so-so though, nothing to scream about. same ol' fish lah.. chicken lah.. so boring lah...



hanging out with the drs turned out to be quite a fun thing actually. putting aside our heavy workloads, fuck those what stupid im-dr-im-more-suprior-than-you-nurse relationship. we were just a bunch of ordinary people who just wanna spend time enjoying ourselves. just to side track abit, abt the yangtze thing i was going to execute on my 21st bdae. im serious man! HAHAHAHAHA! and oh. my tongue stud. i hope ppl who just discovered it dont spread it around like: whoa she's got a tongue piercing! aiyo so scary. aiyo why do something like this blah blah blah.. hahaha i like it, so i have it. i dont go around picking fights, abusing drugs, smoke. in fact im just a typical average girl who has her own morals & principals to abide to, and i think ppl who stereotype others are just so superficial and idiotic. HAHAHAH!



anyway, what comes in must go out. so before i leave swensens, i took a picture of all of us, a photo that i'll keep with me for a long, long time :))) we shd all do this more often!



backtrack abit, i had dinner with YaJing & YueJun at nyny few days ago. YaJing that girlfriend-betrayer left early due to some reasons relating to the boyfriend. see? BGR rules over friendship. tsk tsk. not good. YJun and me caught up with the old times, the days we had in poly. i kinda missed those days. hahaha. come to think of it, nursing led me having the honour to know and meet ppl that'll changed my life(in a positive way)

19.04.09 Swensens @ PS.so many good friends surrounding me, what more can i ask for? indeed, i have to thank god for giving me so much already. :))

finally 3 days of the hazmat course is over. yea i passed everything. thank god. first 2 days was theory(which was easy). 3rd day at the SCDF academy was tiring man. we had to don those super hot protective clothings(almost fainted from heatstroke), i perspired like a roasted pig. also exposed to tear gas(which made me teared, DUH!) man it was a tiring day, but an eye open-ing experience. i really respect those civil defense ppl.. putting themselves on the frontline to save ppl. risky job man. salutes! i hope i'll nvr have to use hazmat skills.. scary if singapore were to have mass casualty or terrorist attacks. CHOY!

also another thing. guys there are like vultures. why? coz they keep staring like we're some prey or something. scary man. hahahah. freaky. i guess thats because they rarely see females around.. cannot blame them also.

went for a jog just now. feels good after an intense workout. as usual, i passed by the regular joggers. the aunties and uncles. mostly ppl in their 40s or 50s. then i was wondering, sia la wheres all the younger ppl?! no wonder nowadays ppl keep getting sick. see la! no exercise! you shd have at least 30 mins of exercise 3 times a week! hmm i guess the busy work schedule ppl have pulls them back from having a good hearty workout. for me i think im counted lucky cos i like exercising, and i dont have a strict curfew from my parents, so i can jog anytime out the streets.

i wanna get a new water bottle soon. my nike bottle is like leaking after 1 year of service.. i guess thats because i drop it every so often.. maybe i'll get a blue one next time! blue is nice! and also my running shoes are so worn out. needa get it soon too(before i get a fall on the slippery ground)

going to sui's sch for some filming for her proj.. hope everything goes well.

teddy'd hot stuff.

HAHAHA 8.5/10

i LIKE this show! LOL SO FUNNY. thumbs up!

SCHOLA with a BABI.

SCHOOL DAYS WITH A PIG

Cast: Satoshi Tsumabuki , Mieko Harada, Tomoko Tabata, Ren Osugi, Yumi Shimizu, Miu Naraki

This film is an emotional masterpiece based on a true controversial story that swept across Japan. A rookie primary school teacher (Satoshi Tsumabuki) suggests his students that they raise a pig, as a way to teach “the real connection between life and food.” He further proposes to eat the pig when it is fully grown. The deadline will be their graduation. The class gets a piglet together, and decides to take care of it in rotation. The students decide to name the piglet “P-chan”. Hesitant to take care of the P-chan at first, it wasn’t long before the students begin to cherish it. As time passes, the rookie teacher starts facing displeasures from his colleagues and the parents of his students. The children themselves begin to quarrel over the P-chan. However teacher and students manage to overcome the problems and learn a lot from this experience. As things has started to work in a positive way, the class has to face an even bigger dilemma a year later. 365 days of love and devotion showered on P-chan, it has grown big. The deadline of the project is drawing near. They have to decide the fate of P-chan. Will they follow the initial objective of this project or…

Bad post.

fatigue. because of the workload and the roster. reeeaaalllyy tired. SIGHS. haven study yet. WALAO SIANNN.

also enough of the same old thing. what tired la.. what stress la. repeat repeat repeat. bet u guys think its annoying.

hais sian. got scolded by my bro for not washing the dishes. FUCK.. was the word he shouted... at me. he doesnt know this.. but it made me so sad. yes. i was very hurt. i even cried. c'mon its only the dishes man. you hurt a living thing's feelings over a NON living thing. hais. i dont see him treat his gf like that? in fact, i think he treats his gf more nicer than me, which im beginning to hate. DUDE IM UR BLOOD SISTER. im a scorpio, jealous by nature. hence i beginning to dislike her. the both of you can go eat shit. go fuck each other till ur vagina lacerates and ur dick rots. happy fucking each other!

man i feel so unwanted in the family. how? haissss..

i dreamt i was holding hands with ______. sia la. the worst thing is, i liked it. wth.
dreams will only be dreams.

oh man this sucks.

my dad seriously has a affair outside. CHINA GIRL. he's a loser man. a real jackass. i hope he'll regret all this when he gets old(i mean those really OLD old.) if i'm a man and am secretly seeing another woman outside, i wont let my family know. argh. what a dickhead.

twinkle twinkle lil' stars.. how i wonder..

music: Corrinne May - Five Loaves And Two Fishes.

yes.. im THAT bored, and emo from listening to emo songs!

aRgGHHHHHHHhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHhhhHHHhHhhhh!!

so bored im re-watching all the vcds, animes i have.(hoping it'll put me to sleep.)

and suisui! where the heck r you! ive called ur phone so like a bagazillion times...

sometimes i think some ppl on facebook are so obliviously annoying or maybe just plain pretentious, wanting compliments. why? cuz theres this box where they can write whatever feelings they want, and publish it for everyone to see. well yea theres completely nothing wrong with that.

the thing im so irritated about is they write something(bad) about themselves, others reply on it(and i mean nice replies!), and the former keeps like fishing for more comments(compliments). a good eg. would be:

A(obnoxious moron): -my hair sucks totally.-

Z(random person being nice): hey ur hair doesnt. its nice actually.

A: oh? it doesnt?

Z: neat.. i guess.

A: really? in what way?

Z: errr...

yea. this idiotic A is like keeps on and on fishing for more compliments.. WHICH IS SO ANNOYING CAN! hahaha~! seriously! cracks me up man.. if you think that im the only one thinking this way, hell no?! LOL i brought this up during small chit chats with my friends and they too think these category of ppl is so irritating. see! evidence! LOL.. i actually feel abit sad for these ppl man.. hahaha..

its 2.05am now.. still cant get to sleep. my body clock is so effed up..

The Alchemist, by Paulo Coelho

“Because I don’t live in either my past or my future. I’m only interested in the present. If you can concentrate always on the present, you’ll be a happy man. You’ll see that there is life in the desert, that there are stars in the heavens, and that tribesmen fight because they are part of the human race. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we’re living right now.”

my favorite quote from the book. hahah im reading it all over again.

LOVE STORY.

pay good attention to the lyrics!

boa's accents is not so strong anymore. love her new songs! groovyyy.

ETERNALLY.

Eternally - Utada Hikaru
this song's on replay. utada's voice is wow.

sighs. the eIMR thing is kinda getting into me. seriously i really hate it. like what jasmine said, i too feel, that im nursing computers instead of patients instead. hate it! but what can i do? basically, NOTHING. haizzzzzz.

just when i was about to give give up on craig david concert(no 1 is going with me plus the tix is expensive) got an email from zirca- stand to win tix if you ans these qns blah blah. hahah i send the answers out via so many emails can. i pray hard i'll get it(which im giving myself false hope)

throat's still hurting me, no matter how much liang teh, antiboitics, lozenges i take. argh! irritating. dont you just hate it when ppl comments 'hey your voice is so sexy!' blah blah. ya lah my voice so damn sexy lah. =/

i wanna go out! cycling, shopping, going to the zoo, clubbing, movies WHATEVER. ppl are always so busy. i am always so busy. sighs.

KL.

KL trip ended with a blast. lazy to upload pics here, go visit facebook instead! loved the food, shopping, clubbing, company etc etc, except for some of the scheming ppl there, always trying to cheat foreigners money despite their strict religion. im referring to SOME. NOT ALL. well overall, i had a fantastic time. :D

see ya next time KL! loves! <3

CRAIG I LOVE YOOOOO.

sighs i wanna go so badly.. but the ones who CAN go either in camp or is tight on cash. wa lao. if u really like him u'll make an effort to save up lo. BIG TIME DISAPPOINTMENT. i want someone to go with meeeeeeeeeee. feel like crying already... haissssssss.

im having INSOMNIA now.

oh craig david so hot :D



oooo enrique!

ps: notice taking back my love and lady gaga's just dance; both start lyrics with 'RedOne'. what the hell?? music company name is it?

electronica music please!


i want a poloroid cam.. argh!
i want straight hair!

and all need money.



i'll be deployed for 1 week. great. i pray it'll be alright.

I WANNA WATCH THISSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

what if you meet the love of your life, are you supposed to let them pass you by?

some people are so lucky.

Living with Death.

i saw true courage and will power. i was stunned and taken aback.

the patient had cancer, spread to the vital organs of his body. his prognosis is so poor, he might not be living thru the yr or even months. i cant believe that he is still so cheerful and walking about now.
the team of doctors told him they have done their best and explained to him that there's nothing they can do anymore except for chemotherapy, hoping it'll not worsen. i think if that were to be me in his shoes, i would have thought my world is crumbling down, i would have done stupid things to end my agony. i guess that'll be cowardice.

but what he said really shocked me, i nearly cried then(YES i was feeling so sad i could cry at that point of time hahah.)

"thank you... Yes, i'll fight on."

YES I"LL FIGHT ON. he merely said that with such determination twinkling in his eyes. such bravery, i thought. such Bravery. and i can sense his sincere thanks to the the healthcare ppl, be it from high ranking doctors to the polite old lady cleaner who helped changed his bedsheets. i salute this guy man, he has my utmost respect.

ordinary person with exordinary strengths. dont you agree?

FAITH. WHAT IS IT?

the first thing i woke up in the morning, i stared at the word, 'faith'. the word 'faith' was imprinted on a friendship band given to me on my birthday back in primary school. its just hung at the radio beside my bed. if i remembered correctly, it was a gift from emelene, one of my best pals back then.

Faith; religious belief, creed, loyalty, trustworthiness.

thinking back to secondary school, i realise i have had ALOT of faith then. always believeing in the goodness of people, an aim i wanna acheive like example; to be a person in the society who is being needed by other people, be a great friend to others as expected of them to be as nice as to me back.
well, i still do think like that, but not as intense as it was before.

i'm losing faith.




ps: damn. (one of)my birthday wishes didnt come true for the past yr. DAMMMNNNN. :(

:) yay im going swimming with suisui tomorrow.

watching this movie had me thinking how painful(and wonderful) it is to be loving someone.





sometimes i think its really amazing. millions and billions of people. how in the world can two persons find each other? aye aye. LOVE is beautiful.

a good day spent :)

went to lil' india today with farid & ruzie. so shiok man we ate this veg meal at this cool place, in which you collect your food by queue numbers. wtf right? its like polyclinics! lol the counter beeps your number, you collect your food. and the food was right-in-your-face-awesome man. money spent there is downright worthwhile.
we also ate these indian sweets from this charming old man stall. omgosh that uncle had such a charming smile and his speaking of english with such thick accent just sweeps me off my feet. okay lah just take all my money lah i dont mind buying your shop just rob me lah.

a great day spent i think. but at the end of the day, i cant help feeling fat. the butterfly flabs on my arms & the sausage rolls on my tummy seemed to be smiling at me. wa lao seriously after cny i think im going horizontal. hmm must not! must not must not.



OKAYS. all set. im all psyched up to lose weight!

YEAH! :)

ive have my bro's card with me. yesssssssssssssssssssss.

kelly clarksons new song: My Life Would Suck Without You
cannot embed it from youtube, but do check it out. it has got a catchy tune :))

大囍事

watched the wedding game today! i thought the jokes were quite funny. loves the part where christopher hangs ever one of fann's soft toys and rips of the poor lion's head. LOL! so LAME can. im so gonna buy the vcd when its out. there's alot of funny situations in this movie, i do recommend you guys watch it too! Fann is so pretty(wow her skin omgosh; micheal jackson of mediacorp.. oopps!!) i think girls(and gay guys too) will scream aloud for chrissy body.

and the lighthouse scene, i swear i have been there before when i was young... its not in singapore.. you'll have to take a boat there i think.. its an island by itself. hmmmm..

我們的愛


i hope saturday goes well. i hope everyday goes well!

night shift. wish good luck to me can?

love the suspenders.

Harukanaru Toki no Naka de - Haruka Kimi ni Moto e - Morimura Tenma (Seki Tomokazu), Inori (Takahashi Naozumi), Nagareyama Shimon

永遠（いつ）までも　傍にいて　大切な人よ
君だけを　ずっと　探し続けていた
幾千の暗闇（よる）を越え　邂逅（めぐりあ）えたから
決して　もう離さない　君の身心（すべて）を

I'll always be by your side, my precious person,
I'll always continue searching for you,
I met you crossing a thousand nights
I'll never ever let go of you again

yeahhh i finally watched keluar baris like after so long.. at SMU film fest. i thought the short film was kinda plain, yet heartwarming. the director and main actor was there too! how lucky to see them upfront and real! really look forward to boo jf's next film; tanjong rhu. oooo love short films! support local directors!

BEST FILM + CINEMATOGRAPHY + DIRECTOR(21st SIFF)


ive been thinking alot nowadays. work, family, friends, work again, health etc etc. so much so that i didnt realise my hair has grown long! LOL. i used to keep wishing my tresses would grow fast, now that i dont pay attention to it, it has grown so long already.

went swimming alone today, as usual, yishun safra. love the smell of chlorine, the brillant blue of the water, the feeling of your entire body submerged into it. makes me forget all my troubles and results in a dead tired me so i can sleep well during the night =]

hmm nowadays im thinking of going for a simple dermal piercing.. saw this guy in nike shop, his piercing has been on my mind ever since. so nice! its like a sparkle forever blinking on his hand. hmmmmmmmmm.